Letters, muggings, exams and the futureBut, we shall see how it goes. It's at 9.30am and I have to spend the rest of the day packing to go home. I'm leaving on Thursday (which reminds me, I must call my new landlord and let him know when I'm going to be there to leave my stuff) and then in 7 days, I'm off to Ohio, to work at a Summer Camp. I'm pretty much the most excited about that! It's going to be amazing. I've been looking forward to it for a long time.
Something which I wasn't looking forward to, though, I don't wholly regret now, is that I was attacked on Sunday night by two rather large men. It was a complex ambush (I think) involving a girl as a decoy. I was pushed to the floor and sat on, while a man tried to relieve me of my wallet. For one reason or another, I was able to escape, reasonably unharmed, (I have taken pictures of my bruises et. al. as a science experiment, (I didn't do it when I crashed my bike and I regret that) and if I find a way to get them from my phone to a computer, you may be able to see them at some point) and with everything I had before the attack, apart from my chips, which I was rather cross about!
What strikes me now, thinking back about it (something I have too much of a predilection for), is how serene the whole experience was. Not to sound too sadistic, but I almost enjoyed it. It's hard to explain, really, but I never really felt in danger, despite having a rather large man kneeling on my chest.
It just so happened that a friend of mine lives on the same road and he was walking back ( we'd been out together, but I had walked home alone...) and I ran past him. He took me into his house and his girlfriend patched me up. I'm a little swollen and stiff, but otherwise, the whole experience has left me somehow invigorated. Not in an "I almost died and now I realise how precious life is" sense. I've got a pretty good idea of that. More in the Fight Club sense. "How much can you know about yourself if you've never been in a fight". I've been hit a couple of times in my life, and I've never hit back ("an eye for an eye makes us all blind") but in that situation, I had to fight. I think that I did better than I had imagined I would. I was pleased with that. I remained remarkably present throughout.
Not so much a life changing experience, but definitely confidence building.
I sent the letter that I mentioned in another journal, I now await a reply. I think that either way it will be good. It's been a load off my mind at least. And with the events of Monday morning, I have something else at the very forefront of my mind. But she's still there. Nagging. Making me ache.
I still haven't started applying for grad school. Fear of failure/putting too much emphasis on its importance. I will do it soon. Maybe before I leave for camp, that's a good deadline.
But I am exponentially positive about the future. It gets better every day!
PS, sorry about all the brackets!
Joy
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